Thursday, March 30, 2006
Sometime i wonder why am i born to this world? Bcoz i can never make my superior like me. Like how much i try to please them. Or it is just a curse?? Ok let me begin my story. On tuesday as per normal we had our evening clinic, So i wake up remind myself that what i have to do for my evening clinic. Cooked a simple dish that is nasi goreng and bring to work. Take my shower and left the hours abt 9.10am. Reach AH abt 10.15am so still early, got another 15 mins to rest and touch up a bit. I dun like to do evening clinic coz be home late and nx morning had to get up to go to work. They been putting me to do evening clinic soo frequent lately i wonder why.
Ok so yesterday and that is wednesday, yasmin came up to me and call me to room 28. I was wondering why??? She showed me the mistake that i have made. So i explained to her that she can't blame me for that *(DOCTOR'S RANK) Dr James loh is Registra not consultant. Before i start the clinic i asked sulastry what is the 3 dr's rank she 2 is res and dr loh is consultant. so i register as per normal. She said that farah sorry, i just want u to register and pass me all the sticker to me and i want to check. I was sooooo super shock why must i do that just because of the stupid mistake and not even my fault u want to treat me just like new staff.
Where i want to put my face. 7 f****** years i work there not promotion prospect and yet i get all this from my supervisor. She really demoralised me by doing that. I am sooo sad and today(thursday) They put me as greeter. I think there is no need for me to do anything just be stupid smile and greet the F******* patients. Good morning mdm/sir Thank you and have a nice day. Do really looking forward to go to work what a stupid things to do (LIKE JAPANESE BOW) HAHAHHA :). *Sigh*
⥠a butterfly landed @ 3:46 AM
Monday, March 27, 2006
Hello all just wanna update u guys with my new hair style, it is 7 years that i keep long hair and i just decided to cut short, just for sake of new image. Bored with the same hair style and wanna look younger i guess hehehe. pls comment on my new hair style.
⥠a butterfly landed @ 8:11 AM
I think this is my first time to indian R.O.M, Something unique abt this rom is bcoz of the place that is in Changi bangalow ALOHA COTTAGE. Something different isn't it. Usually it will held in the same place. Let me say something abt her ROM, Everybody is to be seated by 7.30pm, there is also dress code for that, U have to either dress up in black or white. So i decided to dress up black and white.
Top black and bottom white. I managed to pursuade my husband to follow me to her ROM. He also wear black shirt and cream color pant.
The ceremony is very fast and simple, There is somebody to drive her before she enter the aisle. Something new for ROM RITE?? but she also have deejay for that nite. She cater the food, what i like best is the black pepper chicken, its spicy and the sagu is not bad to. She look beautiful. Wanna see her pic??
To jothi, my wish for u is that every marriage more or less will have up and down. my advice to u be patient and do yr duty as a wife and love ambi forever.
Love diva
⥠a butterfly landed @ 7:43 AM
Friday, March 24, 2006
This is how i look when i am wearing head gear. I think it was the first day of Hari Raya. At that time i am pregnant to my baby aiman. I look very different rite from my 2 sista. Nevermind ppl say Hitam Manis.
Ok let me introduce my two other sista, On the left side of me is my eldest sister, Alia she is married to abang yus my lovely brother- in-law and bless with 3 wonderful kids. That is Nur Insyirah 9, Nur Khalisah 7 and Adam 6 mths plus. I can see that my sister is lucky to get get Abang yus as his husband coz she dun need to work and she travel very often going to Dubai, australia, bangkok, US and many more.
and on the left side of me is my youngest sister nurul huda, we call her in short huda, She is still schooling in Temasek poly. And this is her last year. She got alots of admirer but she is too choosy end up she choose Hafiz. She is 20 this year. She is very straight forward.
To all my sister I love u guys :)
⥠a butterfly landed @ 8:09 PM
Hahah look at aisyah, mcm tepung komak lah. so how different my daughter is now. My mum always told me that when i'm small i have a fair complextion, but after going to school then i become dark. My elder sista lak yg cerah. looke at her chubby gace, i really miss those days. that is why i am trying to treasure my baby aiman nabil look if not it wont come back again. For all i know they will grow faster than i expected. Ah just to update Aisyah is going to Nursery next year. I am beginning to panic coz i have not really teach her at this point of time, But i bought for her books, flash card and vcd for her to see and follow. She can also sing. I am sooo surprised that day she point at me.
AISYAH : MAMA, LOOK AEROPLANE. EE TAKUT. NANTI DIA GIGIT AHH...
and she can even order the maid(ari) she also call her kakak, bibik or ari
AISYAH: KAKAK NAK MILK
OR
AISYAH: KAKAK NAK PUTING ADIK (KAKAK I WANT ADIK PACIFIER)
there is more sentences that she can speak, will try to update again.
ops it is 1.40am in the morning. i need to sleep and wake up to go to my fren engagement (if i spell it rite coz i am sleepy)
⥠a butterfly landed @ 9:24 AM
Aiman is beginning to crawl and he is even trying to stand. I think for 6mths plus is quiet fast rite?? Sometime i wonder aiman look like who? He dun really look like either one of us. To compare aisyah n aiman, aisyah is easy to look after than aiman. He will wake up every hours and we have to pat him and give him his pacifier. Fuh!! that is really causing me to fall sick often, lack of sleeping i guess. He is going to be 1 years old soon yipeee!!! Time flies yah everybody is getting older every year. I always talk to him before he sleep, that he is the first grandson to my dad, coz the first 3 is gals hehhe and he is the forth one, after that then is my nephew Adam. I LOVE HIM TOOOO. I guess i love boys maybe. but i still love my aisyah too. Dun worry aisyah u are still my gal and Apple of yr papa :)
⥠a butterfly landed @ 9:07 AM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
I think i will not plan my wkend again. Want to know why, it will never happen.
Its just a curse i think, Evertime i plan will never come.
On tuesday i told sufian,
farah: ''This saturday no plan pls...I want to go out as a family. To Theme Parks. Anybody ask u out pls say no. all rite. Its a family time.
Sufian: Ok lor
Farah: Remember ok. After yr tuition, Pack up and go. At nite probably might be going to airport with hasliah and roz.
He never agreed to what i just said. Then yesterday that is friday, he told me that pak sarib is admitted, because of stroke. He told me after tuition we go and visit him at SGH, So u see i have to cancel my plan again rite, last wk plan to go Ikea also cancel see i sometime i pity my children and myself. So roz said that abt 5 plus she want to go swimming and ask me to join them, Coz thinking that i have to cancel my plan for that Theme parks. Why not meet roz at Park Oasis. Go for swimming and relax and going Spa. After that probably meet up with hasliah. Abt 2.40pm i ask him, how what's the plan now? he told me will go after 4.30. i was huh, i'm meeting roz at 5 plus. He told me his parents wanted to go. Why they cannot go on their own? Come on man, last 2 wks go out with yr son not enough. Sufian must know how to give time to yr parents and your FAMILY. He scolded me why u must plan n go 2 places. I asked him back, What abt yr parent if they want to go few places, why u never say NO to them. And when i ask u out u will always complain, Tired lah, boring lah.
Sometime's i wonder why must men change their attitute after marriage??? i guess they can only comment why.
I always envy my sister alia, Her husband will find ways n means to spend time with his family. like now they are in Bangkok, Ros is also nyjoying herself with her husband as for hasliah she went to her frenz daughter bthday party. As for me at home with my children n my maid. Wondering later where will they be going. I GUESS I WON'T BE PLANNING FOR ANY OUTING AGAIN. :(
⥠a butterfly landed @ 1:19 AM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
I just don't know what to say, Why this particular person always want to find fault with me??? I been doing my working consistently and yet she still want to find fault ..Sometime i dun really looking forward to go to work coz she is making my life difficult. She would always feedback to our supervisor, never do this, never do that and must do this, must do that haiii,. Why must we be pressurized by this block. We are earning money together ok. We must make our working environment happy, not to be pressure and with a lots n lots of rule. U know like a school. But i think our working area is worst then a school no black clip, not colour rubber band. no this n that. I feel sooooooo sick with this rule. My former school also dun have this rule. They want us to look nice, but too many things that are not allowed. I think in the future color hair also they wont allow, Let's wait and see :)
⥠a butterfly landed @ 4:07 AM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
What a boring sunday for me :(, Sufian went out in the morning to repair one of the teacher's computer. Then i try to call him abt 11 plus where is here now, He told me that he went to his parents house, I told him that i wanna to go out, coz i'm bored at home. Abt 12 plus, he came back with his parents. They got plan already. I was soooo angry. Yesterday he went out with his parents. Today also go out with them. Then what abt me at home. Working is sooooooo stressful i always looking forward on wkend, But its seem's that dis few wkends they always go out. I need so privacy also OK. I wan to go out and distress also. He never think abt my feeling, and when we go out he will always make face and give alot of ecxuses. He always think abt that old couple.
Coming to 7 pm he is still not at home. Sufian if u happen to read this , pls do some soul searching. Talk n discuss abt this will never come to any conslusion. You will never think abt me and our childrens feelings all u think is always your parents. I REALLY HATE THIS. BTW SUFIAN I AM GOING OUT DUN WANT TO WAIT FOR U :(
⥠a butterfly landed @ 2:03 AM
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
wah long since....i update my blog, coz of my busy schedule and spending time with my family. I am sooo sad today coz first thing in the morning when i step out pantry, yasmin came up to me and start to scold me. I was shock at first what have i done this time?? She said that .
yasmin: "farah why didn't u off the PC, and why u didn't lock the drawer?"
farah: "What i didn't even see there any keys lying around, and sulastry didn't even inform me that i need to lock that drawer"
Yasmin: "Do u know that u need to do the same thing just like clinic J"
Farah: "oklah"
After 10 mins later prema came to me and ask whether, u remember to ask patient to call back for appt?? and i said yes. she told me in roll call sister chia brough up that patient is not happy. So i thot i want to make things clear and went to elna to explain. She scolded me just like a 5 years old kid, she raise her voice at me, at that time koki and prema was there. Sometime i feel that this ppl never treat us like a working adult. Prema was shock, the way she shouted at me. I am sooooo pissed off, She thinks that she manager can scold us anytime. She is not professional at all. When patient complain she never want to hear, from our of the story. I really hate this job, I just wanna throw resignation letter at them. I hate this place, the office politic is too much to handle. But i hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. amin....
⥠a butterfly landed @ 3:54 AM
